Spinningly slugged....

Seems it was yesterday when u came by n held me tight in your firm embrace...i held up your feel, your aroma, your touch all around me. It was so pure and fresh that it almost got me to believe that it was there, really!! Though an imagination, u were holding me tight than ever. I gave myself to u as a feather to the liberal wind. I thawed myself into your eternal love like a drop of the rain into the vast ocean. The cool breeze around me was whispering sweet nothings into my ears. And then i saw my handsome and sweet darling standing right in front of me holding his arms out wider than ever and asking me to dissolve myself into his body....and again into his soul!!!

The Transition....

All that happened...seems so fresh yet a deeply doused in the feeling of lonesome. She was in the mystifying thought which told her that being together is much more difficult than being away.....But wait...what did the innate epitome say....It just couldn't let go of the desires of life. The moment when that one notion just outstrips every other and sets you free....free like a butterfly in a garden full of flowers, like a bird in the sky of its own. Caught between the two worlds...she just wanted to let herself flow in the passion of human's basic instincts.....what should be done was a fiery flavor of the playful and innocent her called HEART!!

Shaping the change....

She love the way its shaping up. Though rough, she can handle it. The density of the change that's happening in her makes her feel special...unique than ever before. She doesn't see the negatives, nor the positives. The only thing that's making her go on is the voice. The voice that tells her to exclude the most inevitable part of her life. She was not able to let go...the same old shade struck her.....Change!!......She was smitten by the BLACK shade of her life...trying to break the cascade and running away when the same voice told her to take place at a higher stage...Considering herself as a so called grown up she tried to escape and fit into the billet of a 'WOMAN'. After a great deal of thought she was able to identify their voices as a very inviolable MONOLOGUE......

The beginning end....

The beginning of a new end. What was in my mind was never seen by anyone. Though it was clear enough to understand no one tried so. What i was expecting was much more elaborate than what it was portrayed so. Why is it so that only i have to be calm? Why is it so that every time i have to take a back? Why is it so that whenever i expect myself to be composed i always react in some insane manner? Is it so that i can't be one or is it so that i don't want to be one. The only way out is to break free which would cost me my life and to hold back would cost me my life's time....

Breaking down...

There were times when i told myself to just shut the hell out of me and go on. But then there was this other girl standing by me asking was it deserving enough? I couldn't answer her...at all. Was she right or was i right. All i knew was the whole lot of confusion going on in my heart,mind and body. Mistakes...those mighty mistakes makes my life a living hell. Why are there two minds in me when i just need one? Why is the so called wrong one so powerful when i don't even want it to exist? For everyone else its just a matter of disarray but for me its a whole lot, majorly like a saga. In which i was a sole warrior and the enemy was me myself...

Rising to a rebel.....

After all the passion she was again held up by the same old grief....what to and what not to. Why are the emotions so strong and weird when it comes to loving someone your heart out. Why are we not able to understand the good things are happening to us. Why are we always running behind the facets of life which doesn't even look back to you. Why do we always fall in love with a person who isn't your match. Why the hell does that person realize what their partner needs...IS IT SO HARD TO GET THE EMOTIONS OUT SOMETIMES.....Please Explain?!!??

A new start....again....

Feeling so pure and fresh,she bloomed and blended herself into a mold of womanhood.She wasn't aware that being matured was about savvying and listening to others even without narrating it to yourself.Yet she was happy and gratified.She saw her future in him as clear as a crystal.She fancied her long lost dreams and lived with a new zest.Being given so much care and respect she was astonished to see herself so differently.This was the time when she was actually living her own self.Everything around her seem to be a unlike her normalcy.She started living in a new world of her own,making her own rules and was feeling complete,fulfilled......