Missing the stranger....

She was letting it go....she was letting him go. But there was a certain part in her that was forcing her to stay back. Stay for the stranger in him that might come back. She always looked at a frame....a frame that she had built to see him. He was fitting in like a missing part in a puzzle. He was the missing stranger. She convinced herself of him. She told everyone to confide in him. Everyone did....except he himself! She cried out loud. She cried her heart out. But there was no sign of him to return. She was searching for him, through her heart, mind, body and soul. But again, there was no sign of him to return. What was the thing that she went wrong in? Was it her or were they just her thoughts? Mistake, was a strong dimension of him that she had in her mind. Yes, she thought, he made a mistake. But was it a mistake or just a small setback? But then why wasn't he coming back, the stranger, the missing part of her puzzle...missing share of her soul!

Undesirable winds.....

When she was just refraining from taking a back seat and letting it go, somethings did good for her. She looked at them to see if they were real..."oh yes they are!", she said to herself. She was blending in with her all the unwanted thoughts that made her take an unsound actions. But as soon as she merged herself in, she felt a obstacle. She opened her eyes and found herself in the same old phase of the unwanted winds that passed by her. At some point she thought she had surpassed them and defeated them in their own battle. Then how were they here. With all of their powers back on. Knowing nothing about, she had to again take a back seat, this time not knowing till when. She had once decided not to return but the cool and calm breezes ahead made her mind change. This time they were not visible. How is she suppose to see them, how is she suppose to feel them....or are they left long back never to return?

Being fine...

Well versed with the current phase in her life, she started getting all worked up for the big leap she was about to take. Thinking of all the positive aspects of her life she went all the way to take things on a better and yet bigger tier. She was absolutely set for the change. The change was going to transform her into a new her and yet was going to maintain the inner her....

Fiery future

She was still struck by her past and now her future was also giving her vibe to be prepared. To be prepared for a silent storm. The storm will not destroy her but will not let her fly high. It might pull her down. She was even so enthralled by the far away land that she couldn't see the best of what she had. She wanted to see, touch and feel the best for her. But somewhere somehow she lost it. She lost her very own world where in the day was soaked in a palate of work to be done. Yet a whole new cluster flew towards her showing her colors though fake..... She wanted to believe but couldn't. What was that one word that would change her life? Who was the one to say it? How it was ramping up her head.....Excavating her mind all through the rootage.

Spreading shivery through...

With all the hope she started to make her way. Though not prepared...not knowing how she was going to overcome. Yet with full hopes she rode...Alone through the dark...dark that was daunting her to the core...

The wish star...

Its time to wish...wish my heart out to the one who would grant me anything...he is the star in my sky where else doesn't know the way in.....i wish it would twinkle with the brightest light and grant me the wish...coming in to wish & pray.........

Torn...

Thinking of the same chronicle she was torn between two spheres, of which one that she was living in present. The other was a huge chunk of confusions and blasts and eruptions of the feelings that just grazed her hair and went off. Out of all the breezes that blew off her hair, there was one that went so fast that it shook her head. She was standing there with a heart full of confusions and hypothesis of what her world would have looked like if she was the one she isn't right now...as was told to her, she started to get into the gloom of the past...the gloom was seemingly giving her the brightest ray of light at which she was trying hard to look. But was falling back. What was so beguiling and enticing and delighting that she was unable to pile up the brightness that her own self had...WHY? Why was that one set phrase had changed her insights...insights that were everything to her...were now turning against her own mentation....

Spinningly slugged....

Seems it was yesterday when u came by n held me tight in your firm embrace...i held up your feel, your aroma, your touch all around me. It was so pure and fresh that it almost got me to believe that it was there, really!! Though an imagination, u were holding me tight than ever. I gave myself to u as a feather to the liberal wind. I thawed myself into your eternal love like a drop of the rain into the vast ocean. The cool breeze around me was whispering sweet nothings into my ears. And then i saw my handsome and sweet darling standing right in front of me holding his arms out wider than ever and asking me to dissolve myself into his body....and again into his soul!!!

The Transition....

All that happened...seems so fresh yet a deeply doused in the feeling of lonesome. She was in the mystifying thought which told her that being together is much more difficult than being away.....But wait...what did the innate epitome say....It just couldn't let go of the desires of life. The moment when that one notion just outstrips every other and sets you free....free like a butterfly in a garden full of flowers, like a bird in the sky of its own. Caught between the two worlds...she just wanted to let herself flow in the passion of human's basic instincts.....what should be done was a fiery flavor of the playful and innocent her called HEART!!

Shaping the change....

She love the way its shaping up. Though rough, she can handle it. The density of the change that's happening in her makes her feel special...unique than ever before. She doesn't see the negatives, nor the positives. The only thing that's making her go on is the voice. The voice that tells her to exclude the most inevitable part of her life. She was not able to let go...the same old shade struck her.....Change!!......She was smitten by the BLACK shade of her life...trying to break the cascade and running away when the same voice told her to take place at a higher stage...Considering herself as a so called grown up she tried to escape and fit into the billet of a 'WOMAN'. After a great deal of thought she was able to identify their voices as a very inviolable MONOLOGUE......

The beginning end....

The beginning of a new end. What was in my mind was never seen by anyone. Though it was clear enough to understand no one tried so. What i was expecting was much more elaborate than what it was portrayed so. Why is it so that only i have to be calm? Why is it so that every time i have to take a back? Why is it so that whenever i expect myself to be composed i always react in some insane manner? Is it so that i can't be one or is it so that i don't want to be one. The only way out is to break free which would cost me my life and to hold back would cost me my life's time....

Breaking down...

There were times when i told myself to just shut the hell out of me and go on. But then there was this other girl standing by me asking was it deserving enough? I couldn't answer her...at all. Was she right or was i right. All i knew was the whole lot of confusion going on in my heart,mind and body. Mistakes...those mighty mistakes makes my life a living hell. Why are there two minds in me when i just need one? Why is the so called wrong one so powerful when i don't even want it to exist? For everyone else its just a matter of disarray but for me its a whole lot, majorly like a saga. In which i was a sole warrior and the enemy was me myself...

Rising to a rebel.....

After all the passion she was again held up by the same old grief....what to and what not to. Why are the emotions so strong and weird when it comes to loving someone your heart out. Why are we not able to understand the good things are happening to us. Why are we always running behind the facets of life which doesn't even look back to you. Why do we always fall in love with a person who isn't your match. Why the hell does that person realize what their partner needs...IS IT SO HARD TO GET THE EMOTIONS OUT SOMETIMES.....Please Explain?!!??